so this month flew by, yes it did.

wow its been kinda long since i blogged, i just got kinda lazy i guess.

well my boyfriend came back, YAYY! its only for 2 weeks but its better than nothing. ive been with him for the past two days but i probably wont see him until the end of the week now cause i got in some trouble with my mom. so i have no phone, no house keys, and no permission to do anything for a month supposedly but my dad has been working on it only being a week which i think is totally fair cause im fucking 18 already, seriously and im still getting punished, wtf? i never, never, never got punished when i was younger. i swear i didnt start geting punished until i was in high school. isnt that so backwards? whatever.

so where i live got the hugest snow storm for no reason, which caused me all the trouble im in right now, damn snow lol. christmas is so close and i can honestly say i wasnt excited about christmas until my boyfriend came home. he just makes everything so much better. i dont know how christmas is going to go now that im in trouble but it shouldnt be that bad. my grandmothers are coming tomorrow or wednesday i think. i have a math final tomorrow which i have to study for, ughhh :/

oh, i made my first grown up desicion...ive decided not to go to college anymore and go to a techincal school, which everyone is soo bothered about for some reason. why? idk, i can never do anything with out someone getting upset about it. whatever though cause im gonna do what i want.

i kinda wnated this to be longer and more in depth but i have to fill out a gazillion finacial aid papers and study for my math final :/

welllll i went to see my so-called best friends last night. nothing really too different, its still akward but its getting a little better i guess.

so from the looks of it im finally 18. YAY me, right? lol im not really to omg happy about it like everyone else is when they turn 18 cause i know nothing is gonna change for me. everything is still gonna be the same so im just doing what i regularly do. just being normal me i guess.

nothing too much has happened in the past few days, shits been real boring. poor me. thats it i guess.

so ive come to the conclusion that im upset. and when people hear this in my house they get scared cause, omg who knows what she'll do next, and will she hurt someone? and blah blah blah. just because i was in anger management a few years ago doesnt mean im gonna go postal on everyone everytime im upset. and i was anger managment for total bullshit reasons anyways so whatever. well now that i know that im upset, what the fuck do i do about it? where the hell do i go from here?

p.s. my boyfriend texted me last night and i didnt answer him, cause honestly i couldnt come up with anything to say to him.

p.s.s. my birthday is in 2 days :)